72 posts till now & only 20 published...
I'm writing this post & not knowing what I am intending to write or why.. I even dunno if it is going to join the 52 drafts written before or not.. maybe... I dunno..
well, This is my final year at FCIS (in shaa Allah).. I have a huge mixture of feelings.. I feel I don't wanna leave college.. not because I love FCIS as much as I love the people in FCIS..
I love my dof3a.. I love my colleagues.. 7ata el mo3edeen wel doctors.. I appreciate many of them much & can't imagine the absence of some characters of them from my life..
"That's Life" as many people say.. but I don't accept that fact this time.. I can't imagine that by the end of this year I will close a whole chapter of my life & write on it "archive"..
It is true that this is not the first closed chapter, yet its the most affecting chapter in my whole life & it is difficult to see it being closed that easy... I still feel I just joined FCIS yesterday..
Although this is the final year, yet I don't feel I am effective in others life as I always hoped.. I always dreamed about leaving a footprint in FCIS ,but here we are in the final year & I still feel I didn't do much...
well, I just poured out some of the fuzzy thoughts going inside my mind.. All I can say that I will miss those days, I will even miss staying up till night going tasks & studying online with my friends.. I will miss everything.. so just let us enjoy it before time comes & everyone begins another new chapter in his life with none of us in it..
I still feel there's sth inside me that I can't express, but let that be in another post..
Thanks for listening/reading..
Sunday, November 18, 2007
Fuzzy Thoughts(1)
I just felt I wanna write sth, but I dunno really what I want to say... neither do I know how to express..
Sometimes, we have fuzzy thoughts.. translating those thoughts to words is almost impossible.. you keep feeling something inside yet you can never pour it out..
Wish I can.. Wish I will...
Sometimes, we have fuzzy thoughts.. translating those thoughts to words is almost impossible.. you keep feeling something inside yet you can never pour it out..
Wish I can.. Wish I will...
Friday, November 2, 2007
Do3a2...
اللهم انى استغفرك مما تبت اليك منه ثم عدت فيه واستغفرك مما جعلته لك على نفسى ثم لم أوف به لك واستغفرك مما أنعمت به على فاستعنت به على معصيتك واستغفرك مما زعمت اني قصدت به وجهك فخالط قلبى فيه ما قد علمت
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
More than just a memory...
I can hear some voices around.. people talking.. I hardly recognize those voices although I am sitting in the middle of those people.. cause I am not staying in their world, I'm staying in my own world.. I am so much deep in thoughts.. Thinking.. THINKING.. T H I N K I N G...
I dunno, suddenly I remembered a situation that happened to me @ school in first preparatory I think.. ohh.. I almost forgot about that situation before...I dunno why I suddenly remembered that situation.. maybe feelings matching..
I remember that day when I was in my class sitting there during my French session.. waiting for the teacher to announce the best organized & neat copybooks.. I had a feeling inside that I will be among those ones cause simply I stayed all night organizing my copybook & completing the things I missed when I was sick the past week.. I had it so much colorful & organized...
The teacher started talking.. she said that she was glad from all the copybooks & that all of them were very good, except for 4 copybooks that were so bad, she was speechless about them..
she said that she's gonna say those 4 first before announcing the others.. the teacher started looking at the copybooks.. & here was the shock..."Roaa Mohammed, Stand up"
I really can't forget that moment.. I was SHOCKED with all the word means.. ME!!?? .. my heart was faaast beating.. my hands were shaking.. I don't remember the words the teacher altered, all I remember that she was shouting much & me can't even breathe from my shock.. I was wondering whyyyyyyy!!?.. wtever I did, I DON'T DESERVE this.. the reaction I got was so unexpected.. I felt nth but sitting down with the copybook thrown in my face...
I was so much hurt badly that I burst into tears... "I stayed allll night working on it, how could this be!"
After the 1-year long session ended, I decided to examine my copybook & check what was that so bad that I did.. & here is wt I found.. I was sick for a whole week & I copied the missing parts from a printed paper that my friend gave me, but my friend made some mistakes in printing so I had some parts missing.. that was wt made the teacher angry !!
I explained that to the teacher, she removed the mark from my copybook but the mark she made in my heart was still the same....
At that time, I thought I will never forgive that teacher, but I can tell u that by secondary I did forgive her..
Finally, I'm sorry if I ever did that to anyone by mistake, I never do mean it to hurt anybody.. & also I'll try hard to forgive those who did the same to me.. maybe now I don't, but I am sure I will do that one day just like my teacher...
This post was written on a paper in my compiler section.. & those voices were simply the T.A & my colleagues voices..
I dunno, suddenly I remembered a situation that happened to me @ school in first preparatory I think.. ohh.. I almost forgot about that situation before...I dunno why I suddenly remembered that situation.. maybe feelings matching..
I remember that day when I was in my class sitting there during my French session.. waiting for the teacher to announce the best organized & neat copybooks.. I had a feeling inside that I will be among those ones cause simply I stayed all night organizing my copybook & completing the things I missed when I was sick the past week.. I had it so much colorful & organized...
The teacher started talking.. she said that she was glad from all the copybooks & that all of them were very good, except for 4 copybooks that were so bad, she was speechless about them..
she said that she's gonna say those 4 first before announcing the others.. the teacher started looking at the copybooks.. & here was the shock..."Roaa Mohammed, Stand up"
I really can't forget that moment.. I was SHOCKED with all the word means.. ME!!?? .. my heart was faaast beating.. my hands were shaking.. I don't remember the words the teacher altered, all I remember that she was shouting much & me can't even breathe from my shock.. I was wondering whyyyyyyy!!?.. wtever I did, I DON'T DESERVE this.. the reaction I got was so unexpected.. I felt nth but sitting down with the copybook thrown in my face...
I was so much hurt badly that I burst into tears... "I stayed allll night working on it, how could this be!"
After the 1-year long session ended, I decided to examine my copybook & check what was that so bad that I did.. & here is wt I found.. I was sick for a whole week & I copied the missing parts from a printed paper that my friend gave me, but my friend made some mistakes in printing so I had some parts missing.. that was wt made the teacher angry !!
I explained that to the teacher, she removed the mark from my copybook but the mark she made in my heart was still the same....
At that time, I thought I will never forgive that teacher, but I can tell u that by secondary I did forgive her..
It really hurts badly when you receive the opposite of what you deserve..
Finally, I'm sorry if I ever did that to anyone by mistake, I never do mean it to hurt anybody.. & also I'll try hard to forgive those who did the same to me.. maybe now I don't, but I am sure I will do that one day just like my teacher...
This post was written on a paper in my compiler section.. & those voices were simply the T.A & my colleagues voices..
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
My Pen..
I know I am not a good poet, but this is my way to try to express my feelings & thoughts.. I know I am not good in expressing that in human language.. so today I sat down trying to express, but unfortunately I came out with those useless words...
I hold my pen to write some words
I don't know what my pen is heading towards
so I leave it to write with no constraints
but in the middle, my writing faints
cause my pen is unable to describe
& words are so difficult to even type
my pen stops & pauses for a little while
& thoughts flow in my head over like a pile
my hands become so weak that I let my pen go
& let my dripping tears, instead, flow
I try to grasp my pen all over again
trying to endure that feeling of pain
After an hour or two, my pen decides to start
to try to write some words, few lines apart
but again & again, my pen is paralyzed
cause some feelings are so hard to be realized
My pen loses hope to be able to express
& the more I feel now of pain & stress
so my pen returns again to my little case
Leaving me & my thoughts in an indescribable maze.
I hold my pen to write some words
I don't know what my pen is heading towards
so I leave it to write with no constraints
but in the middle, my writing faints
cause my pen is unable to describe
& words are so difficult to even type
my pen stops & pauses for a little while
& thoughts flow in my head over like a pile
my hands become so weak that I let my pen go
& let my dripping tears, instead, flow
I try to grasp my pen all over again
trying to endure that feeling of pain
After an hour or two, my pen decides to start
to try to write some words, few lines apart
but again & again, my pen is paralyzed
cause some feelings are so hard to be realized
My pen loses hope to be able to express
& the more I feel now of pain & stress
so my pen returns again to my little case
Leaving me & my thoughts in an indescribable maze.
Monday, October 1, 2007
My Teacher...
I was taught a lot by a teacher called "Life"
She taught me a a lot of things about how to survive
she taught me to be tough so that I can live
but at the same time,be soft, & able to forgive
she taught me to dream, all my dreams are possible
but also put in mind that there are somethings impossible
she taught me there is always hope & never to give up
She taught me to keep on trying & never to stop
She taught me some sweet words like love & care
but also she taught me words like hatred & despair
She taught me to love my family & friends so much
but also be ready to lose them at any time as such
she taught me not to hide my feelings from anyone
but pretend to be strong when everyone around me has gone
she taught me that life has to go on, no matter what happens
No matter how many problems I face or how many troubles
She taught me to care about others & not to hurt anyone
but at the same time,endure the pain that others have done
she taught me to give away & not wait for anything in return
she taught me to be patient & to wait for things to come in turn
she taught me to listen to others & share them their pain
while keep my sorrow inside me even if that'll drive me insane
she taught me to love people, no matter how much they care
& always my happiness & gay, with them I should share
she taught me a lot of lessons that I will never forget
learning them was something that I will never regret.
& if you asked me about my teacher who taught me all that
I will tell you all I know about her is just a small fact;
She is a very hard & tough teacher who rarely knows fun
All her lessons are morals but each one of them is a bitter one
She taught me a a lot of things about how to survive
she taught me to be tough so that I can live
but at the same time,be soft, & able to forgive
she taught me to dream, all my dreams are possible
but also put in mind that there are somethings impossible
she taught me there is always hope & never to give up
She taught me to keep on trying & never to stop
She taught me some sweet words like love & care
but also she taught me words like hatred & despair
She taught me to love my family & friends so much
but also be ready to lose them at any time as such
she taught me not to hide my feelings from anyone
but pretend to be strong when everyone around me has gone
she taught me that life has to go on, no matter what happens
No matter how many problems I face or how many troubles
She taught me to care about others & not to hurt anyone
but at the same time,endure the pain that others have done
she taught me to give away & not wait for anything in return
she taught me to be patient & to wait for things to come in turn
she taught me to listen to others & share them their pain
while keep my sorrow inside me even if that'll drive me insane
she taught me to love people, no matter how much they care
& always my happiness & gay, with them I should share
she taught me a lot of lessons that I will never forget
learning them was something that I will never regret.
& if you asked me about my teacher who taught me all that
I will tell you all I know about her is just a small fact;
She is a very hard & tough teacher who rarely knows fun
All her lessons are morals but each one of them is a bitter one
Written in Thursday, August 3, 2006.. Copyright Reserved
Saturday, September 29, 2007
Be Like a Pencil..
The Pencil Maker took the pencil aside, just before putting it into the box.. & spoke to it.. "There are 5 things you need to know, before I send you out into the world... Always remember them and never forget, and you will become the best pencil you can be."
One: You will be able to do many great things, but only if you allow yourself to be held in Someone's hand.
Two: You will experience a painful sharpening from time to time, but you'll need it to become a
better pencil.
Three: You will be able to correct any mistakes you might make.
Four: The most important part of you will always be what's inside.
And Five: On every surface you are used on, you must leave your mark. No matter what the condition, you must continue to write.
The pencil understood and promised to remember, and went into the box with purpose in its heart.
Now replacing the place of the pencil with you; always remember them and never forget, and you will become the best person you can be.
One: You will be able to do many great things, but only if you allow yourself to be held in God's hand. And allow other human beings to access you for the many gifts you possess.
Two: You will experience a painful sharpening from time to time, by going through various problems, but you'll need it to become a stronger person.
Three: You will be able to correct any mistakes you might make.
Four: The most important part of you will always be what's on the inside.
And Five: On every surface you walk through, you must leave your mark. No matter what the situation, you must continue to do your duties.
The previous story was copied.. but I have a final comment.. Allah created each of us for a reason... & each of us has different talents.. so use them & endure anything that happens to u.. & keep that belief inside u.. & do everything while having a meaningful purpose in your heart... Just like a Pencil.. :)
One: You will be able to do many great things, but only if you allow yourself to be held in Someone's hand.
Two: You will experience a painful sharpening from time to time, but you'll need it to become a
better pencil.
Three: You will be able to correct any mistakes you might make.
Four: The most important part of you will always be what's inside.
And Five: On every surface you are used on, you must leave your mark. No matter what the condition, you must continue to write.
The pencil understood and promised to remember, and went into the box with purpose in its heart.
Now replacing the place of the pencil with you; always remember them and never forget, and you will become the best person you can be.
One: You will be able to do many great things, but only if you allow yourself to be held in God's hand. And allow other human beings to access you for the many gifts you possess.
Two: You will experience a painful sharpening from time to time, by going through various problems, but you'll need it to become a stronger person.
Three: You will be able to correct any mistakes you might make.
Four: The most important part of you will always be what's on the inside.
And Five: On every surface you walk through, you must leave your mark. No matter what the situation, you must continue to do your duties.
The previous story was copied.. but I have a final comment.. Allah created each of us for a reason... & each of us has different talents.. so use them & endure anything that happens to u.. & keep that belief inside u.. & do everything while having a meaningful purpose in your heart... Just like a Pencil.. :)
Monday, September 17, 2007
Allah is always there..
Just thought about sharing this poem.. I wrote it last june
Allah is always there....
When u feel depressed or annoyed
& that all your dreams are destroyed
Just remember a fact which is very true
that Allah is always there for you
Allah always brings the best to us
That's a fact you should always trust
But that fact we hardly realized
cause blesses are usually disguised
& also we are always in a hurry
we fear too much & always worry
But if you truly left, to Allah, your burden
& be accepting what he will bring for certain
Then be sure that he will never let you
& that Allah will bring the best to you
For every little thing that made you sad
& those hard times that you ever had
be sure that everything has a reason behind
Allah knows better, just keep in mind
That painful wound you had yesterday
was a reason to make you stronger today
& that situation that happened to you
was to make you realize some fake people around you
& that thing that made you cry one day
was a message from Allah to get back to the right way
& many more of those things we thought
were blocking the way to the happiness we sought
But they just turn out to be the best for us
& that we needn't have made all that fuss
So despite winds of sadness that may blow
Just remember we are too ignorant to know
And whenever anything happens to you
Just remember that Allah is always there for you..
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
Dreams Vs. illusions
Everybody has dreams in his life, Some of them are based on current facts, some of them are just made up by his brain & imagination.. but in both cases, they are called "Dreams"..
I always believed that everyone should dream & that 'nothing is impossible' & that sort of things, but I was mistaken anyway..
Sometimes we give some dreams more than reality can give.. that they turn out to be 'illusions'.. we keep following 'illusions' till we find out that they are false... but when do we find out that ??.. usually too late..
who said "nothing is impossible' was simply lying or at least that's an illusion he wanted people to believe in.. but its not true, There are somethings impossible.. Its never logic for a human being to be able to move a mountain for example !!
I don't say to you not to dream.. no, dream.. but don't dream much cause in this case your dreams will turn to be just illusions.. & then it will really hurt badly...
Imagine the feeling of a person walking for months to reach a bottle of water in the desert, & when he reaches there, it turned to be nth at the end.. just his own illusions..
so finally life taught me to Dream, but not much..
I always believed that everyone should dream & that 'nothing is impossible' & that sort of things, but I was mistaken anyway..
Sometimes we give some dreams more than reality can give.. that they turn out to be 'illusions'.. we keep following 'illusions' till we find out that they are false... but when do we find out that ??.. usually too late..
who said "nothing is impossible' was simply lying or at least that's an illusion he wanted people to believe in.. but its not true, There are somethings impossible.. Its never logic for a human being to be able to move a mountain for example !!
I don't say to you not to dream.. no, dream.. but don't dream much cause in this case your dreams will turn to be just illusions.. & then it will really hurt badly...
Imagine the feeling of a person walking for months to reach a bottle of water in the desert, & when he reaches there, it turned to be nth at the end.. just his own illusions..
so finally life taught me to Dream, but not much..
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Words...
I read those words & I truly liked & felt them.. Although I have a small modification to it, I think we should say ما أصعب & not ما أجمل (if u considered it from the "I" perspective not "people" perspective)
ما أجمل أن تتسامح وأنت تتألم.. وأن تصمت وأنت بحاجه للكلام ..وأن تفرح والحزن يخيم بك... وأن تضحك وعيناك بحاجة للبكاء
Saturday, September 8, 2007
Re-Think...
Well, I am writing this story hoping it will affect anyone's behavior the way it did affect mine... Sometimes Allah sends us messages to warn us & teach us.. so I hope that by narrating this, many will "rethink" about every little thing they do in their own lives...
Starting Microsoft Internship, I got to know my new colleagues that I am going to join in the internship, one of them was called "Khalid".. Khalid, a student in Sunderland university studying in AAST, He was successful in his study... Due to the many breaks we had during the sessions, we had the chance to talk many times... we all have common dreams.. we all were thinking about our graduation projects, about making use of our summer vacation, about learning new topics.. we all were thinking about the "Future"..
After spending a month together, one day Khalid didn't come to the training.. a friend called him & here is what we got to know.. Khalid had an accident & was resting in the hospital in a serious case..
Khalid suffered from a coma for a whole month..... & eventually.... he died from 2 weeks.. (Allah yer7amoh)
Well.. I'm speechless.. Khalid's death was a shock for me... every now & then I remember Khalid & I remember the fact that we all could have been Khalid............
Don't wait till your death is a lesson to another one.. Correct your mistakes, Apologize for the people you annoyed & much of more.. be ready to meet Allah in any second..
Finally, Pray for Khalid & for his family to have patience... & pray for Mustafa too (my friend's cousin who was a similar case to Khalid & just died from 2 days..)
Both Mustafa & Khalid were 21 years old.. ".فهل من مدكر؟؟"
Starting Microsoft Internship, I got to know my new colleagues that I am going to join in the internship, one of them was called "Khalid".. Khalid, a student in Sunderland university studying in AAST, He was successful in his study... Due to the many breaks we had during the sessions, we had the chance to talk many times... we all have common dreams.. we all were thinking about our graduation projects, about making use of our summer vacation, about learning new topics.. we all were thinking about the "Future"..
After spending a month together, one day Khalid didn't come to the training.. a friend called him & here is what we got to know.. Khalid had an accident & was resting in the hospital in a serious case..
Khalid suffered from a coma for a whole month..... & eventually.... he died from 2 weeks.. (Allah yer7amoh)
Well.. I'm speechless.. Khalid's death was a shock for me... every now & then I remember Khalid & I remember the fact that we all could have been Khalid............
Don't wait till your death is a lesson to another one.. Correct your mistakes, Apologize for the people you annoyed & much of more.. be ready to meet Allah in any second..
Finally, Pray for Khalid & for his family to have patience... & pray for Mustafa too (my friend's cousin who was a similar case to Khalid & just died from 2 days..)
Both Mustafa & Khalid were 21 years old.. ".فهل من مدكر؟؟"
Sunday, July 8, 2007
How Happy I am?
You Are 68% Happy |
 You are a very happy person. Generally, you feel content and that all is right with the world. Occasionally, you have a down day - but you have the ability to pick yourself right back up. |
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Third year Lessons..
1- Don't think urself Superman..
2- Choose some Dr who knows u 3alashan yesa7a7lak ur projects & practical.. even if he will give u bad grade, at least he wont think sth like "you cheated"..
3- Don't hesitate to say sth, cause later on you may regret not saying it..
4- Choose your team mate carefully.. "Friendship is sth & work is sth else"..
5- Start doing ur projects early
To be continued...
2- Choose some Dr who knows u 3alashan yesa7a7lak ur projects & practical.. even if he will give u bad grade, at least he wont think sth like "you cheated"..
3- Don't hesitate to say sth, cause later on you may regret not saying it..
4- Choose your team mate carefully.. "Friendship is sth & work is sth else"..
5- Start doing ur projects early
To be continued...
Sunday, May 13, 2007
Where r we going??
Once I asked my family & some close friends a question.. That question, I couldn't find a clear answer for it.. & yet not all the answers were convincing...
The question was "Is it us who has too many morals, or is it people who lack too many of them ??"
before asking, I thought a lot about the answer of that question... & even after getting some replies, I started to think about them more..
I remember many did think that people lack many morals now, many did thought that both of them are the answer.. but here's the answer I liked most... it was said by my sis..
she said: "Both, BUT..... we really did dispense a LOT"
Although that happened long ago, but I still remember her words.. & as time passes, I really observe that I am dispensing more of my morals.. I'm dispensing things I used to hold on & think they were right.. I'm dispensing beliefs & actions I thought before they were improper to do... yeah, Its true... u too dispensed a lot of ur morals... just a small flash back will remind you with things you used to think they are not 100% right & now you do them normally...
If u didn't find any, then u either are on the right track & you are keeping your believes, or you dispensed them loooong ago...
The question was "Is it us who has too many morals, or is it people who lack too many of them ??"
before asking, I thought a lot about the answer of that question... & even after getting some replies, I started to think about them more..
I remember many did think that people lack many morals now, many did thought that both of them are the answer.. but here's the answer I liked most... it was said by my sis..
she said: "Both, BUT..... we really did dispense a LOT"
Although that happened long ago, but I still remember her words.. & as time passes, I really observe that I am dispensing more of my morals.. I'm dispensing things I used to hold on & think they were right.. I'm dispensing beliefs & actions I thought before they were improper to do... yeah, Its true... u too dispensed a lot of ur morals... just a small flash back will remind you with things you used to think they are not 100% right & now you do them normally...
If u didn't find any, then u either are on the right track & you are keeping your believes, or you dispensed them loooong ago...
Friday, April 20, 2007
"قصيدة أنيس أحمد بوخمسين "جهاد النفس
This is one of my favorite poems, I've been searching for it quite long & finally found it, so I wanted to keep it here..
بملء إرادتي وبملء بأسي :: عصيتُ بعالم الشهَوات نفسي
وعصياني لها رضوانُ ربي :: وعزّة حاضري وغدي وأمسي
إذا أسلمتُ للنفس انقيادي :: جرعتُ الذُّل كأساً بعد كأسِ
وعين الذل أن أحيا رقيقاً :: بطاعة أمرها أضحي وأُمسي
وإني قد أبيتُ لها انقياداً :: وصنت كرامتي ورفعتُ رأسي
أسيِّرها كما أهوى وليست :: كما تهوى تُسيّرني لبؤسي
أحاسبها قبيل حلول يومٍ :: أحاسب فيه ممدوداً برمسي
ومهما زيَّنت قُبح الخطايا :: وبثّت غيَّها في كل هجسِ
سأبقى ما حييتُ أقول كلا :: لما تُمليه من زللٍ ورجس
وأقضي العصر في حربٍ سجالٍ :: أريد خضوعها وتريدُ نكسي
أشُنُّ على رغائبها قتالاً :: وأترك جذعَها نهباً لفأسي
أُروّضها وألجمُها فيعلو :: صهيلُ جِماحِها في كل حسّي
وتبقى مارداً شرساً ولكن :: بقُمْقُمه الصغير رهين حبسِ
وعصياني لها رضوانُ ربي :: وعزّة حاضري وغدي وأمسي
إذا أسلمتُ للنفس انقيادي :: جرعتُ الذُّل كأساً بعد كأسِ
وعين الذل أن أحيا رقيقاً :: بطاعة أمرها أضحي وأُمسي
وإني قد أبيتُ لها انقياداً :: وصنت كرامتي ورفعتُ رأسي
أسيِّرها كما أهوى وليست :: كما تهوى تُسيّرني لبؤسي
أحاسبها قبيل حلول يومٍ :: أحاسب فيه ممدوداً برمسي
ومهما زيَّنت قُبح الخطايا :: وبثّت غيَّها في كل هجسِ
سأبقى ما حييتُ أقول كلا :: لما تُمليه من زللٍ ورجس
وأقضي العصر في حربٍ سجالٍ :: أريد خضوعها وتريدُ نكسي
أشُنُّ على رغائبها قتالاً :: وأترك جذعَها نهباً لفأسي
أُروّضها وألجمُها فيعلو :: صهيلُ جِماحِها في كل حسّي
وتبقى مارداً شرساً ولكن :: بقُمْقُمه الصغير رهين حبسِ
Saturday, April 7, 2007
What Lies Beneath...
We meet many persons in our lives.. & each person we meet, we get a first impression about that person.. & through situations with that person & this person's behavior, our brain starts to build a full picture for his character.. & upon this picture, we base our judgment on that person.. Is he good? kind? gentle?? boring? ... & moooore..
But, the question is.. Is that enough to judge a person through situations u see that person in or through this person's behavior??
well, the answer in my opinion is "No"..
Through situations in my life, I learned not to judge someone except after knowing -wt I call- "What Lies Beneath"..
Every person in Life has his own problems, situations he's been through that affected his behavior, responsibilities... etc... Every person u meet has sth "Hidden" Lying beneath that body u see, It's sth lying there inside his soul, his heart & his thoughts... This sth influences him in how he acts, how he sees people & even how he forms his attitude towards life..
so whenever someone acts strangely or unkindly or any other behavior you think its non-acceptable, don't ever judge that person except after u know "What lies beneath".. or at least give the probability that there's sth that influenced that behavior..
Sometimes when we know those things, our judgment upon those persons is changed extremely... maybe from anger to understanding.. from hatred to love.. from tough attitude to pity...& more of those "extremes"..
I will just like to end with this sentence..
But, the question is.. Is that enough to judge a person through situations u see that person in or through this person's behavior??
well, the answer in my opinion is "No"..
Through situations in my life, I learned not to judge someone except after knowing -wt I call- "What Lies Beneath"..
Every person in Life has his own problems, situations he's been through that affected his behavior, responsibilities... etc... Every person u meet has sth "Hidden" Lying beneath that body u see, It's sth lying there inside his soul, his heart & his thoughts... This sth influences him in how he acts, how he sees people & even how he forms his attitude towards life..
so whenever someone acts strangely or unkindly or any other behavior you think its non-acceptable, don't ever judge that person except after u know "What lies beneath".. or at least give the probability that there's sth that influenced that behavior..
Sometimes when we know those things, our judgment upon those persons is changed extremely... maybe from anger to understanding.. from hatred to love.. from tough attitude to pity...& more of those "extremes"..
I will just like to end with this sentence..
جعفر بن محمد قال: إذا بلغك عن أخيك الشيء تنكره فالتمس له عذرا واحدا إلى سبعين عذرا، فإن أصبته، وإلا، قل لعل له عذرا لا أعرفه.
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
%,&!I@*%)@(#^@...
My frequently used pm "Most of our problems are functions of Time".. yeah.. It's really a source of many problems.. you have limited time & many things to do.. IF you did so, you won't be able to do so & so.. Accordingly, some people may get annoyed from you or at least you won't be taking the responsibility you are put in & that's not right.. IF you did all wt you wanted to do, you will end up DEAD Tired & not being able to do anything later on.. Its all an endless loop... I was trying to set a Time Plan for the coming 2 weeks now & I really couldn't find any time to do any thing from the things I'm supposed to do.. & If I compress the plan this week.. by the end of next week I'll have TONS & TONS of things to do.. really I felt so upset.. so pressured.. so squeezed.. & so tired..
I don't have time to be myself.. I wish to find time to be a student, a daughter, a granddaughter, a sister, a programmer, a friend, a good muslim, a sports player, a Books & news reader, a relative, an ACMer....... & much of more a human...
who should be balmed for this.. I dunno.. maybe myself.. maybe the circumstances.. I dunno really.. but till now I find no clear solution for this.. I don't either know if that is sth temporary till I graduate from this college or that will be life long status (OH I can't imagine that really!!) !?!
I'm really confused.. I'm really tired.. so tired.. I'm taking vitamins nowadays in order to be able to rise from bed.. I think I can't continue like that !!
Why am I writing this here.. I dunno.. maybe stress relieving.. anyway, here I am.. wasting time writing this.. I'd better go to bed now........
I don't have time to be myself.. I wish to find time to be a student, a daughter, a granddaughter, a sister, a programmer, a friend, a good muslim, a sports player, a Books & news reader, a relative, an ACMer....... & much of more a human...
who should be balmed for this.. I dunno.. maybe myself.. maybe the circumstances.. I dunno really.. but till now I find no clear solution for this.. I don't either know if that is sth temporary till I graduate from this college or that will be life long status (OH I can't imagine that really!!) !?!
I'm really confused.. I'm really tired.. so tired.. I'm taking vitamins nowadays in order to be able to rise from bed.. I think I can't continue like that !!
Why am I writing this here.. I dunno.. maybe stress relieving.. anyway, here I am.. wasting time writing this.. I'd better go to bed now........
Sunday, March 11, 2007
Silence...
Silence is a relative or total lack of sound.
That's "Silence" definition as found on Wikipedia.. I totally agree with this definition, but maybe I can add more definitions for silence..- Silence: When someone is there & not there at the same time, he talks to you, but the words are said just cause he had to talk.. in this case, I feel the other person is silent & I can hear nth but silence..
- Silence: Is the action when noone talks, but you.. you hear nth but your own words.. Although they maybe others sitting there, but in this case I hear nth but silence...
- Silence: When words are said shallowly from the heart, In this case... I feel the person in front of me is not talking... cause words aren't coming from his heart... he's almost silent to me..
I dunno, but just thoughts came to my brain.....
Thursday, March 8, 2007
أحب الأشياء إلى الله
مِن أحب الأشياء إلى الله تعالى :
1- الصلاة وبر الوالدين والجهاد ؛ لقول النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم : « أحب الأعمال إلى الله : الصلاة لوقتها ، ثم بر الوالدين ، ثم الجهاد في سبيل الله » [ متفق عليه ] .
2- الإيمان وصلة الرحم والأمر بالمعروف والنهي عن المنكر ؛ لقول النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم : « أحبّ الأعمال إلى الله : إيمان بالله ، ثم صِلَة الرَّحم ، ثم الأمر بالمعروف والنهي عن المنكر » [ رواه أبو يعلى وحسَّنه الألباني ] .
3- المداومة على الطاعات ؛ لقول النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم : « أحب الأعمال إلى الله أدومها وإن قلّ » [ متفق عليه ] .
4- ذكر الله عز وجل ؛ لقول النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم : « أحب الأعمال إلى الله ، أن تموت ولسانك رطب من ذِكْر الله » [ رواه الطبراني وحسَّنه الألباني ] .
5- كلمة الحق عند سلطانٍ جائر ؛ لقول النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم : « أحبّ الجهاد إلى الله كلمةُ الحق تقال لإمامٍ جائر » [ رواه أحمد وحسَّنه الألباني ] .
6- صدق الحديث ؛ لقوله صلى الله عليه وسلم : « أحبّ الحديث إليّ أصْدقه » [ رواه البخاري ] .
7- صيام وصلاة داود عليه السلام ؛ لقول النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم : « أحبّ الصيام إلى الله صيام داود ، كان يصوم يوماً ويفطر يوماً ، وأحبّ الصلاة إلى الله صلاة داود ، كان ينام نصف الليل ، ويقوم ثلثه ، وينام سدسه » [ متفق عليه ] .
8- قول سبحان الله وبحمده ؛ لقول النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم : « أحب الكلام إلى الله أن يقول العبد : سبحان الله وبحمده » [ رواه مسلم ] .
9- قول : سبحان الله ، والحمد لله ، ولا إله إلا الله ، والله أكبر ؛ لقوله صلى الله عليه وسلم : « أحب الكلام إلى الله تعالى أربع : سبحان الله ، والحمد لله ، ولا إله إلا الله ، والله أكبر . لا يضرُّك بأيِّهن بدأت » [ رواه مسلم ] .
10- حَسَنُ الخُلُق ؛ لقول النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم : « أحب عباد الله إلى الله أحسنهم خُلُقاً » [ رواه الطبراني وصحَّحه الألباني ] .
11- نَفْع الناس وإدخال السرور على المسلمين وكَشْف الكُرُبات ، وقضاء دَيْن المَدِين ، وإطعام الجائع ؛ لقول النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم : « أحبّ الناس إلى الله أنفعهم للناس ، وأحبّ الأعمال إلى الله عز وجل سرور تدخله على مسلم ، أو تكشف عنه كربةً ، أو تقضي عنه دَيناً ، أو تطرد عنه جوعاً ، ولأن أمشي مع أخي المسلم في حاجة أحب إليَّ من أن أعتكف في المسجد شهراً ، ومن كفَّ غضبه سَتَرَ الله عورته ، ومن كَظَمَ غيظاً ولو شاء أن يُمضيه أمضاه ، ملأ الله قلبه رضاً يوم القيامة ، ومَن مشى مع أخيه المسلم في حاجته حتى يثبتها له ، أثبت الله تعالى قدمه يوم تزلُّ الأقدام ، وإن سوء الخُلُق ليُفْسد العمل كما يُفْسد الخلُّ العَسَل » [ رواه ابن أبي الدنيا وحسَّنه الألباني ]
1- الصلاة وبر الوالدين والجهاد ؛ لقول النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم : « أحب الأعمال إلى الله : الصلاة لوقتها ، ثم بر الوالدين ، ثم الجهاد في سبيل الله » [ متفق عليه ] .
2- الإيمان وصلة الرحم والأمر بالمعروف والنهي عن المنكر ؛ لقول النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم : « أحبّ الأعمال إلى الله : إيمان بالله ، ثم صِلَة الرَّحم ، ثم الأمر بالمعروف والنهي عن المنكر » [ رواه أبو يعلى وحسَّنه الألباني ] .
3- المداومة على الطاعات ؛ لقول النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم : « أحب الأعمال إلى الله أدومها وإن قلّ » [ متفق عليه ] .
4- ذكر الله عز وجل ؛ لقول النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم : « أحب الأعمال إلى الله ، أن تموت ولسانك رطب من ذِكْر الله » [ رواه الطبراني وحسَّنه الألباني ] .
5- كلمة الحق عند سلطانٍ جائر ؛ لقول النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم : « أحبّ الجهاد إلى الله كلمةُ الحق تقال لإمامٍ جائر » [ رواه أحمد وحسَّنه الألباني ] .
6- صدق الحديث ؛ لقوله صلى الله عليه وسلم : « أحبّ الحديث إليّ أصْدقه » [ رواه البخاري ] .
7- صيام وصلاة داود عليه السلام ؛ لقول النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم : « أحبّ الصيام إلى الله صيام داود ، كان يصوم يوماً ويفطر يوماً ، وأحبّ الصلاة إلى الله صلاة داود ، كان ينام نصف الليل ، ويقوم ثلثه ، وينام سدسه » [ متفق عليه ] .
8- قول سبحان الله وبحمده ؛ لقول النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم : « أحب الكلام إلى الله أن يقول العبد : سبحان الله وبحمده » [ رواه مسلم ] .
9- قول : سبحان الله ، والحمد لله ، ولا إله إلا الله ، والله أكبر ؛ لقوله صلى الله عليه وسلم : « أحب الكلام إلى الله تعالى أربع : سبحان الله ، والحمد لله ، ولا إله إلا الله ، والله أكبر . لا يضرُّك بأيِّهن بدأت » [ رواه مسلم ] .
10- حَسَنُ الخُلُق ؛ لقول النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم : « أحب عباد الله إلى الله أحسنهم خُلُقاً » [ رواه الطبراني وصحَّحه الألباني ] .
11- نَفْع الناس وإدخال السرور على المسلمين وكَشْف الكُرُبات ، وقضاء دَيْن المَدِين ، وإطعام الجائع ؛ لقول النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم : « أحبّ الناس إلى الله أنفعهم للناس ، وأحبّ الأعمال إلى الله عز وجل سرور تدخله على مسلم ، أو تكشف عنه كربةً ، أو تقضي عنه دَيناً ، أو تطرد عنه جوعاً ، ولأن أمشي مع أخي المسلم في حاجة أحب إليَّ من أن أعتكف في المسجد شهراً ، ومن كفَّ غضبه سَتَرَ الله عورته ، ومن كَظَمَ غيظاً ولو شاء أن يُمضيه أمضاه ، ملأ الله قلبه رضاً يوم القيامة ، ومَن مشى مع أخيه المسلم في حاجته حتى يثبتها له ، أثبت الله تعالى قدمه يوم تزلُّ الأقدام ، وإن سوء الخُلُق ليُفْسد العمل كما يُفْسد الخلُّ العَسَل » [ رواه ابن أبي الدنيا وحسَّنه الألباني ]
Great Hadeeth
قال رسول الله صلى الله عليه وسلم:
(إن الله وملائكته وأهل السماوات والأرض حتى النملة في جحرها وحتى الحوت ليصلون على معلم الناس الخير)
رواه الترمذي
Jazakee Allaho 7'ayran ya Noha for letting me know this Hadeeth.. Its really a gr8 one.. Just take a deep look into the meanings...
Starting from the ant, which is the smallest creature we can see & up to the Whale, which is the biggest creature..
Ya rab nekoon yoom men "mo3alemeen el nas al 7'ayr".. Alllahum Ameen..
(إن الله وملائكته وأهل السماوات والأرض حتى النملة في جحرها وحتى الحوت ليصلون على معلم الناس الخير)
رواه الترمذي
Jazakee Allaho 7'ayran ya Noha for letting me know this Hadeeth.. Its really a gr8 one.. Just take a deep look into the meanings...
Starting from the ant, which is the smallest creature we can see & up to the Whale, which is the biggest creature..
Ya rab nekoon yoom men "mo3alemeen el nas al 7'ayr".. Alllahum Ameen..
Friday, February 23, 2007
More than just a Party...
I'm not used to write very personal things here (I don't know why I made this blog actually), but I think maybe this post can be an exception...
Last Thursday was the ACM-ASCIS Welcome Party.. The party was wonderful.. mm.. with some small mistakes.. but I think we learned a lot from those mistakes (I did actually)..
Anyway... For me, it was more than just a party.. well.. The past 2 weeks before this party, I was having so many problems (el 7amdolellah).. & esp @ college.. I was really so depressed from everything.. my dreams began to fade away & that was increasing when we had small provoking problems (like posters hanging, throwing away our T U stuff.. etc)
Although the results appeared & el 7amdolellah, it was good.. but that didn't change a lot of my status.. I felt that one should leave this country after graduation cause there's no hope to make anything in it better.. I never in my life was so much depressed as those 2 weeks... till the day of the party...
What the party made to me??.. well.. I began to feel "Hope" again..
I saw it in the eyes of the attendants in this party.. I saw it in the "Team work" from all our team members... I saw it in the "commitment" of everyone of us.. & much of more, I FELT it deep inside...
el 7amdolellah.. THANK YOU everyone cause this party returned life back to me...
& here I am.. still dreaming & still hoping.. :)
Last Thursday was the ACM-ASCIS Welcome Party.. The party was wonderful.. mm.. with some small mistakes.. but I think we learned a lot from those mistakes (I did actually)..
Anyway... For me, it was more than just a party.. well.. The past 2 weeks before this party, I was having so many problems (el 7amdolellah).. & esp @ college.. I was really so depressed from everything.. my dreams began to fade away & that was increasing when we had small provoking problems (like posters hanging, throwing away our T U stuff.. etc)
Although the results appeared & el 7amdolellah, it was good.. but that didn't change a lot of my status.. I felt that one should leave this country after graduation cause there's no hope to make anything in it better.. I never in my life was so much depressed as those 2 weeks... till the day of the party...
What the party made to me??.. well.. I began to feel "Hope" again..
I saw it in the eyes of the attendants in this party.. I saw it in the "Team work" from all our team members... I saw it in the "commitment" of everyone of us.. & much of more, I FELT it deep inside...
el 7amdolellah.. THANK YOU everyone cause this party returned life back to me...
& here I am.. still dreaming & still hoping.. :)
Friday, January 19, 2007
Self Control..
A great true story about Sayedna Ali (one of Al Sa7aba - companions- of Prophet Muhammad (PBUH) )...
During a battle, sayyedina Ali, found himself face to face with a kafir (not muslim) who attacked him violently. They were both brave and powerful men, but the kafir was no match for sayyedina Ali, who soon was sitting astride his chest, ready to finish him off.
During a battle, sayyedina Ali, found himself face to face with a kafir (not muslim) who attacked him violently. They were both brave and powerful men, but the kafir was no match for sayyedina Ali, who soon was sitting astride his chest, ready to finish him off.
"I invite you to bear witness that there is no god except Allah, and Muhammad is the Messenger of Allah," said Ali. "Accept Islam, and your life will be spared."
"Never!" panted the kafir.
Sayyidina Ali lifted his sword and was just about to plunge it into his enemy, when the kafir spat defiantly in his face.
Much to the kafir's surprise, sayyidina Ali immediately jumped away from his enemy and lowered his sword.
"Go away!" said sayyidina Ali, "I cannot kill you now."
"Why did you do that?" asked the kafir."You could have killed me easily."
"I was fighting you purely in the way of Allah," replied Ali, "but when you spat in my face, your insult made me angry and if I had killed you in anger, it would have taken me to the HellFire - so I had no choice but to let you go. To kill someone in anger or out of desire for revenge is not bravery, but the act of a coward."
On hearing this, the kafir was so impressed by sayyidina Ali's sincerity and self-control that he embraced Islam on the spot: "I bear witness that there is no god but Allah," he said, "and I bear witness that Muhammad is the Messenger of Allah"
Sunday, January 7, 2007
Stay Sharp..
Please, Read this story deeply... I think many of us need it..
Once upon a time a very strong woodcutter asked for a job in a timber merchant, and he got it. The pay was really good and so were the work conditions. For that reason,the woodcutter was determined to do his best.His boss gave him an axe and showed him the area where he was supposed to work. The first day, the woodcutter brought 18 trees.
"Congratulations," the boss said. "Go on that way!"
Very motivated for the boss' words, the woodcutter try harder the next day,but he only could bring 15 trees. The third day he try even harder, but he only could bring 10 trees. Day after day he was bringing less and less trees. "I must be losing my strength", the woodcutter thought. He went to the boss and apologized, saying that he could not understand what was going on.
"When was the last time you sharpened your axe?" the boss asked. "Sharpen? I had no time to sharpen my axe. I have been very busy trying to cut trees."
Our lives are like that. We sometimes get so busy that we don't take time to sharpen the axe." In today's world, it seems that everyone is busier than ever, but less happy than ever. Why is that? Could it be that we have forgotten how to stay sharp?
There's nothing wrong with activity and hard work. But God doesn't want us to get so busy that we neglect the truly important things in life, like taking time to pray, to read, to be near to our family. We all need time to relax, to think and meditate, to learn and grow.
If we don't take time to sharpen the axe, we will become dull and lose our effectiveness. So start today. Think about the ways by which you could do your job more effectively and add a lot of value to it..
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