Brand new !!

Like everyday, He rested in his bed at night sleeping deeply in a dark cold night.. but unlike everyday, he suddenly felt an inner call telling him to wake up..

He jumped out of his bed, not knowing why he woke up at that time !! .. It was just that inner call telling him to get up, go out to his garden & start digging near the fence..
Strange it was, yet he followed that mysterious inner call without thinking.. although his eyes were almost shut down & exhausted, yet, he continued his way out of his house's door towards his garden..
Step by step he walked, holding his spade towards the place where that anonymous call is leading him..
Everything was silent except for some sounds of night's bugs around... even if that sounded scary, he was carefree, concentrating only in digging..

He dug faster & faster... Although it was cold outside, yet he started sweating.. with an inner belief inside that he will reach something that deserves all this..

& yes, he was totally right ! .. After that tough digging journey, he finally found it !!!!! ... It was amazing .. no no.. much more than amazing !! .. It was something that no one has ever seen before..
yeah that's true.. for he can't even describe what he was looking at right now... It was simply a stone, but what was really different was its color !! .. It wasn't blue or red or any other color.. It was a brand new color... yes, can u believe it ?? .. he discovered a new color !! .. not the traditional colors we know.. It is a new color that nobody has ever known or seen before !!!

Yeah.. It was just awesome !! ... He kept there stunning not believing what he was seeing.. He never knew that he could see that in his life ever !! .. He never thought there might exist another colors he never saw !! .. wow.. did you ever thought about that feeling !! ..

After a few hours, he began to feel tired and sleepy.. although he was still much excited, he couldn't prevent himself from walking back to his bed..

Back to his bed, he put his head to sleep again.. dreaming about what will people do when they just see that amazing stone.

In the morning, he wake up full of energy.. headed towards his garden to get his stone and take it to the nearest journal or TV channel..

Arriving there beside that hole in his garden, he looked down.. but, ohhhhh, it wasn't there !!!!!
How could that be ?! .. He felt really stupid for leaving it down in the garden the day before.. but wait... could that be a dream !! .. no no, what about that hole in his garden.. also, he still remember that new color & how beautiful it looked !!

He stayed there for a while feeling so sad... Desperately, he walked back again to his home.. to go get ready for his work to start a new day in his routine life.. He felt so upset as for now he couldn't even narrate this to anyone.. cause no one would ever imagine or believe what he once saw.. nobody would ever imagine how beautiful the new color looked and even he can't describe it to others...
.. He headed back to his home, feeling sad, but different.. for he will never forget that new amazing wonderful color.. that color that nobody saw except himself !

You can eat an elephant !

I was playing among my things when I came to this light & funny poem that I read somewhere long ago, so I just thought about sharing it here...

You can eat an elephant.
Oh,yes you can it's true.
They may be huge but not to worry,
they aren't to big for you.

"Just how can I eat such a thing
that's so immense in size?"
"Just look at it in pieces
and make them all bite size."

You see to look from head to tail
can be a daunting task.
Many would just give up now
and let the elephant pass.

Look at it as if you can
eat it piece by piece,
It may take you a while,
but your goal you will reach.

So, next time you have a task
that is difficult to do,
Remember, you can eat an elephant
so take a piece and chew!
(Copied)

See the moral in that ;) .. Remember, you can eat an elephant :)

The Containers..

You were asked to fill a set of containers with a liquid... You have many different containers in sizes.. You were given the containers & liquid.. of course there will be many ways to pour the liquid in the containers.. Some people will pour it all in one container.. others will divide it on two containers & throw the rest of the containers.. others will fill them all with small volumes... & many other different reactions..

That's exactly how I see our lives... Your life is a set of containers of different sizes.. There is a container called "Family".. Another one called "Friends".. & also there are "Career", "Fun".. etc.. The number of the container is unlimited.. you can have many containers as you want.. but you have limited of amount of the liquid to pour into your containers.. That liquid is your time & energy..

In all your life, you are supposed to pour from your time & energy to fill your containers (fields of interests).. Some people cares about only one portion of their lives & dedicate themselves to it.. Others give the whole energy & time to all things they are engaged in.. Others divide their energy equally but yet they never end with any of the containers filled..

The problem is not how to fill your containers.. the problem is the the more your pour in one, the less the remaining for others.. another problem is the sizes of the containers, they depend on the person... there are some people who thinks about their career as the biggest container they have & want to fill... others puts highest priority to their personal lives..

Why am I saying all this.. I dunno.. but maybe deep thinking about my own containers ended up with these strange thoughts..

[From old drafts: 2/10/07]

Losing hope..

As I'm officially a graduate now, I had a flash back for my first days at college.. everything passed so quickly.. a lot has changed maybe & that's wt I wanted to dig for inside myself & figure it out..

I remember my first days at college, I was full of enthusiasm and hope.. I had that passion and energy to try to make a change in the community around.. I had hope that everything will go fine and with the help of all good people around, we will be better in shaa Allah.. I imagined that everything should go so smooth and fine.. I also saw people full of enthusiasm, & that gave me more energy to have more hope.. I remember my first summer vacation (when I was in first year), I spent it all in 'ACM training' with Dr Abdalla Gamal & in the 'Hacking tool box' sessions by Dr.Ahmed Safwat.. I saw hope in those people's eyes.. they had the passion to make a change.. & yeah.. those people used to make me feel there's hope..

.. But.. what truly happened inside me in those 4 years? .. mm.. I won't say I'm depressed, cause it is not that bad.. yet.. there's sth that changed inside me.. that 'hope' isn't there any more.. I felt like... mm.. I dunno..
One faced situations that made him see how much some people are so evil.. they are not only concerned by acting badly, they also prevent you from acting well.. In those 4 years I saw the people who used to give me hope, losing hope.. maybe they didn't, but that's the attitude I got.. and if they did feel so, they are right.. all circumstances here should make you feel so..

Small it is (our college community) in compared to our BIG community (Egypt), but I didn't feel much differences.. It is only a small clone.. Everything around you should lead you to great depression.. sometimes small things happen that awakens the hope inside you.. yet, most of the time you will just feel that you wanna let it all go !!

maybe I'm mistaken.. but that's how I felt the change in my attitude towards life in general after 4 years in FCIS.. I still have hope we can change, yet I'm now aware that we are not living in Utopia after all and I think the light of hope I see is not as sharp as I previously saw it 4 years ago...

المؤمن القوي خير وأحب إلي الله

By coincidence, I came through this article.. I liked it so much..

المؤمن القوي خير وأحب إلي الله .. د.يوسف القرضاوي

ألهاكم التكاثر

أكيد اللي هيقرا البوست ده هيستغرب جدا لإني عمري ما كتبت بالعربي.. هو أنا حسيت ان انا مينفعش اكتب عن الموضوع ده غير بالعربي
المهم.. أنا بعد ما قريت اللي أسماء كتباه افتكرت موضوع انا طول عمري نفسي اتكلم عليه.. و هو تفسير الأية ::

{قال تعالى: { ألهاكم التكاثر حتّى زرتم المقابر

انا من الناس اللي لما كنت بقرا الأية ديه, اللي بييجي في ذهني علطول كمعنى للأية هو أن الناس بتتشغل بإنها يبقي عندهم أولاد كتير و بعدين يبقى عندهم أحفاد و هكذا.. لحد ما مرة سمعت تفسير الأية من حد (لا أتذكره الأن) بيقول تفسير تاني مقنع اكتر من نفسيري العظيم

التكاثر :: كلمة واحدة صحيح بس لو فكرت فيها هتلاقى كذا معنى
التكاثر في الأموال , التكاثر في العلم, التكاثر في الذرية, التكاثر في الشهادات... التكاثر ..التكاثر في حاجات كتير
و ده فعلا صحيح جدا.. اى واحد فينا هيلاقي نفسه مقضي حياته كلها في الدراسة و البيت و الشغل و .. و حاجات كتير كلها لغرض واحد هو انه يبقى أحسن, أو يكسب فلوس أكتر, أو يعرف أكتر.. و كلها حاجات تقع تحت كلمة التكاثر

اد ايه انا بقيت احس بالأية ديه كل لما أقرأها دلوقتي.. و اد ايه بقيت انتبه ان الحاجات ديه متشغلنيش علشان الجزء التاني من الآية حتّى زرتم المقابر

يا رب الكلام ده يبقى مفيد لأى حد.. و يا رب مفيش حاجة تشغلنا ابدا عن ذكر الله.. و عذرا على لغتي العربية الفصيحة

Your battery needs to be replaced !!

A couple of weeks ago, my laptop battery suddenly went down & just works for a couple of mins then the battery is empty.. later on whenever I open my laptop (working on the AC), a warning pop up in my face saying..

"Your battery needs to be replaced !!"

Actually, for me this is more than just a warning cause I felt the warning is not about the laptop only.. I felt that MY battery also need to be replaced !!
Of course human being doesn't need batteries to work.. ha !! .. but sometimes there are things that gives us motives to go on & encourage us to keep on moving.. Those tiny little things are sometimes like batteries for us.. losing those "things" make us moving slowly, with no enthusiasm, depressed.. etc..
Currently -after about 4 years in college- , I feel I'm tired from the college's endless cycle.. I'm tired of studying.. I'm tired of reading.. I'm even tired of writing in this blog !! ..
I dunno why.. but I'm just like my laptop's battery.. suddenly, bad performance !!

I think wt the one really needs is sitting down with his own self 'recharging' his batteries.. but I think sometimes recharging isn't much helpful -like my state now-.. so here comes again the importance of the warning "your battery needs to be replaced !!"

It is good to remember the importance of replacing my battery each time I open that laptop.. & I think I should be replacing it soon.. in shaa allah..

Anyway, just fuzzy thoughts as usual...

Don't ask why..

Sometimes we are faced by not very good experiences in our lives.. sometimes we fail in somethings, sometimes we are hurt by others, sometimes we are put in embarrassing situations.. sometimes... sometimes..
& usually following those situations, we ask ourselves 'why that happened?'.. & many times we don't find clear answers... sure we tell ourselves 'Thank god', but many people just say that by only their tongues..

I just want to narrate a story that happened to me one day.. its not a big one, but it has a meaning to deliver..
One day while I was closing my car, I broke one of my car doors' lock from inside, that was followed by "oh no.. anyway, Thank god".. I was a bit upset cause I have to go somewhere to mend it & I didn't have much time..
Anyway, following that situation by a couple of days.. I had to go somewhere far so I parked my car in a place & took a bus.. anyway, I parked it at 8 am & went back at 9 pm.. when I was back there, I found that someone tried to steal my car.. he broke the small part of the back window in order to open it, but he couldn't break through because simply the door lock was broken at that side so he couldn't open it !!!!
without me breaking my car locks, the car would have been stolen.. At then the bit of annoyance I had when I broke the car lock days ago was turned to extreme gratefulness to Allah..

so, wt I want to say that sometimes we don't see why are those small things/situations happening, while if we saw the whole picture, we will truly understand the meaning of 'why'.. Most of the times we don't even see the 'whole picture', but then we should understand & believe that there are always reasons for every little thing happening and that Allah always brings the best for us..
so don't frown at other faces, they have nth to do with things happened or happening, even if they were a part of it.. Allah wants that to happen, There's a wisdom for that to happen..

Sometimes we pass through hard & bitter experiences just to make us strong enough.. imagine you are moving from first floor to the third floor.. you should pass by the second floor.. maybe that can be hard experience.. maybe you are faced by things you don't like.. but you'll never be in the third without passing by the second.. I mean that sometimes things happen to us just to make us ready for the next steps..

Anyway, Try to find sth positive in everything that happens to u even if u don't see it (I'm sure there is) & believe deeply that this is the best.. I appreciate that this is very hard sometimes.. but at least give it a try & don't ask why...