Fuzzy Thoughts(2)

72 posts till now & only 20 published...
I'm writing this post & not knowing what I am intending to write or why.. I even dunno if it is going to join the 52 drafts written before or not.. maybe... I dunno..

well, This is my final year at FCIS (in shaa Allah).. I have a huge mixture of feelings.. I feel I don't wanna leave college.. not because I love FCIS as much as I love the people in FCIS..
I love my dof3a.. I love my colleagues.. 7ata el mo3edeen wel doctors.. I appreciate many of them much & can't imagine the absence of some characters of them from my life..

"That's Life" as many people say.. but I don't accept that fact this time.. I can't imagine that by the end of this year I will close a whole chapter of my life & write on it "archive"..
It is true that this is not the first closed chapter, yet its the most affecting chapter in my whole life & it is difficult to see it being closed that easy... I still feel I just joined FCIS yesterday..

Although this is the final year, yet I don't feel I am effective in others life as I always hoped.. I always dreamed about leaving a footprint in FCIS ,but here we are in the final year & I still feel I didn't do much...

well, I just poured out some of the fuzzy thoughts going inside my mind.. All I can say that I will miss those days, I will even miss staying up till night going tasks & studying online with my friends.. I will miss everything.. so just let us enjoy it before time comes & everyone begins another new chapter in his life with none of us in it..

I still feel there's sth inside me that I can't express, but let that be in another post..
Thanks for listening/reading..

Fuzzy Thoughts(1)

I just felt I wanna write sth, but I dunno really what I want to say... neither do I know how to express..
Sometimes, we have fuzzy thoughts.. translating those thoughts to words is almost impossible.. you keep feeling something inside yet you can never pour it out..
Wish I can.. Wish I will...

Do3a2...

اللهم انى استغفرك مما تبت اليك منه ثم عدت فيه واستغفرك مما جعلته لك على نفسى ثم لم أوف به لك واستغفرك مما أنعمت به على فاستعنت به على معصيتك واستغفرك مما زعمت اني قصدت به وجهك فخالط قلبى فيه ما قد علمت